Thinking

So, I had this "brilliant" idea for a one act but then I realized it would never work so now I am trying to think of something else. I want to use several dialects because I am a major fan of accents. So while I think, I am going to blog.


I watched 6 hours of Firefly yesterday. I finally had to quit when my Netflix was freezing too much. It made me angry. I watched a few episodes before school today. I should be finished by the end of the week. I feel it has changed my life just as much as Buffy and Dollhouse did.

Today I get no dinner and maybe no sleep. I have quiz bowl until 6 then I have to go home and change into nice clothes and be back at school by 630 for the choir concert. I also have PC and math homework which I never have. So I am not a happy camper today. Luckily I don't have any homework in my afternoon classes. (Aside from my one-act)

This week will be very busy. As I said, Quiz bowl and choir concert today, read-through and JSA tomorrow (no dinner time again), tech on wed, tech on thursday, then quiz bowl competition and maybe tech (if we are back in town on time) on friday, then another quiz bowl competition on Satuday!!!!!!! I am excited!

I feel much less shy and depressed today. I mean, don't expect me to start talking all the time but I really don't feel as afraid to talk. Who knows how long that will last but I shall enjoy it while I can.

It has only been 2 periods since lunch and I am already hungry... Boo...

I have played a lot of UNO today. Hehe... We played in the middle of the forum during the first half of lunch (Right on the big N) then at the lunch table, then through most of German. I win a lot... Not quite sure why.

The sun is out. I probably won't get to enjoy it very much today which is highly disappointing. But I did forget my Rizzoli glasses (a.k.a. my aviators) so maybe that is okay. I love the sun although I also fear the sun. I don't tan. I am simply incapable of it. I freckle and burn. It is quite awful. So my summers are full of sunscreen. Lots and lots of sunscreen.

I am so excited for summer! I have to take speech in summer school because the councelors kinda forgot to put me in it and its required... I should just blame them and not take it but then I couldn't graduate... And that would theoretically suck. I don't really look forward to graduating. I will be lost after high school. I also plan to work the firework stand again. Although I have heard they may not have it because they are too lazy to find people to work it. That would be lame. Then Band Camp!!!!!! Tyler is going to start teaching me Baritone this Friday. I am excited.

Today is going pretty fast. That is good for a Monday. I usually love Mondays. I wasn't excited for this one at first but it is kinda kicking arse so I am enjoying it.

I have come up with a basic concept for my one-act! I knew blogging could help. Although I think I shall keep blogging because it is fun!

I am finding that a good way to have a good time is to have little to no expectations. If you don't expect much, then anything makes it better. Like Winter Royalty. I went so I wouldn't be sitting home alone and I had fun. Or today at lunch. I went to play UNO, then the guy I like joined in. We didn't talk much but I was satisfied with that.

Okay, now I am going to start sounding a bit evil. So during Winter Royalty, my step brother's dog attacked his face and he had to get 5 stitches (my step brother, not the dog) I hate him very much but I was worried because he is family. Today I saw him at school. He kinda looks like the joker. only its just on one half of his mouth. I started laughing. I feel awful about it but it made me very happy. well not happy but satisfied with my life. I have a feeling he was taunting the dog and probably deserved it. Now I am just worried for the dog. Had he been very injured I probably would have been more concerned but if hes good enough to be at school I have no problem feeling good about it.

I feel like this may be the least organized blog post I have ever made. I have a very tiny attention span today because of my good mood. It has been a very good day. I love it. And later I get to wear heels!!!!!

Okay that is all for now.

***Kat***

Deep Thoughcicles

So, Firefly is causing me to think about some major things and I feel the need to blog about them.

Thoughts:
If I were to actually say (or even tweet) half of the things I was thinking sometimes, I would probably be absolutely hated by people. I tend to have very strong opinions I just know how to hold my tounge. So people think I'm overly quiet. Would they really rather I not be? I am not saying I always think things like that. I rarely think things that are really mean its just my opinions. So If i were to offend people. I certainly wouldnt mean to.

Society:
Society these days really determines what is "appropriate." Swearing, sex, and things such as that. I was watching the Saturday Night Live Backstage Special yesterday and they were talking about how in the 70s they couldn't say "sucks" or "penis" on tv. The second one is still a bit uncommon on tv but even children's shows are saying "sucks." I tend to refer a lot to this time I heard the All-American Rejects song "Gives You Hell" playing right next to the toys section in Target. I understand there are many people who beleive that is not really a bad word due to its religious meaning but do we really want children to think its okay to use it whenever? I admit I do swear sometimes but I don't do it consitantly. I hear high schoolers swearing all the time in most cases its just to say a bad word. Heck, even teachers have given up on resisting swearing in class. Its interersting to me. I never swore until 8th grade (aside from once when I was little and my grandma used to say "crap" all the time but I dont actually remember it my mom has just told me the story many times) and now I hear little 2nd and 3rd graders swearing worse that I do now. It's horrible. I think its fascinating how much society and the media affects what is okay in the world.


Well those are my random deep thoughtcicles for the day. Back to Firefly! Apparently, my reaction tweets are entertaining the older fans of it!

***Kat***

Firefly

Joss Whedon's Firefly is incredible. I have been working on watchign it for weeks but due to my current acheing from the dance last night I have finally sat down to watch hours of it.

As with the rest of Joss Whedon's shows, Firefly is brilliant and it shows his usual theme of the "bad" guys being the protagonists and the "good" guys being the antagonists. It also has a lot of questionable morals.

(summary from IMDB)
"In the far-distant future, Captain Malcolm "Mal" Reynolds is a renegade former brown-coat sergeant, now turned smuggler & rogue, who is the commander of a small spacecraft, with a loyal hand-picked crew made up of the first mate, Zoe Warren; the pilot Hoban "Wash" Washburn; the gung-ho grunt Jayne Cobb; the engineer Kaylee Frye; the fugitives Dr. Simon Tam and his psychic sister River. Together, they travel the far reaches of space in search of food, money, and anything to live on. "

In my opinion, the captain is very annoying but the actor who portrays him is one of those actors whose character I hate but as an actor I love. (Nathon Fillion). Zoe is entertaining but shes not as cool as many of the others. Her husband Wash (Played by Alan Tudyk!!!!!) is hilarious. He is actually my second favorite character. Jayne is the big tough guy of the group. Loves to fight and win. Major jerk-face though. many funny lines. I havent really seen much that fascinates me about the doctor except for the sibling thing with him and his sister River. River is amazing. She still doesnt interact much at the point in the show which I am at but she is brilliant and entertaining anyways. My favorite character is Kaylee. She is the Serenity's mechanic. She is a total tom-boy type but she is still very girly at times. She is funny and smart.

I am currently only on the 4th episode so these are very beginning feelings but I know this show definitely lives up to its internet fame. And proves to me once more that FOX is stupid and should learn what good TV is. (Although they do rock on the "comedy" genre. )

***Kat***

I have nothing specific to write about.

I have nothing specific to write about but it's Friday and I don't want to work on my characters right now. My base plan for my One-Act is just to get into the inner workings of the relationships between my friends.

Tomorrow, I get to be to school by 530 am for quiz bowl!!!!!!!!!!! Sadly, there is very little sarcasm in those exclaimation points... I am completely excited. Plus, I actually get to be part of the team this time!

My mom and I have been using my few days of no after school activities to get caught up on our TV shows. We watched 6 episodes of outsourced yesterday. Only 4 more of those to go! I think we have 10 episode of Mike and Molly but other than that I think everything is less than 5 episodes. I also think once we catch up on Mike and Molly then we will be completely in 2011. Its odd seeing ads for Thanksgiving and Black Friday sales... Esepcially considering its nearly March. But if the weather can be confused about the month then so can my DVR!

I've been trying hard to think a bit less. I have had several good days in a row that were not overly good they just weren't bad!

Today I completely avoided my stepsister at lunch because she didn't get a role in the play and I assumed she would be upset. She is, but not as bad as I expected. I am so proud of her for trying at all. Ever since Musical sophomore year I haven't been able to. It sucks to audition then only end up on crew. It really sucks. But now I have grown to love lights. Although we get a new person for this play who I don't know and that really scares me. The only other names I noticed on lights were Matt and Dan although I believe there were 1 or 2 more plus the stranger. It will be a good experience.

I have almost finished the book I am reading. It is "The Book of Tomorrow" by Cecelia Ahern. It is kinda creepy how relavent it is to my life. The main character is a 16 year old girl whose father kills himself leaving her and her mother alone with all of his debt so they go live with her aunt and uncle on a farm. She is a spoiled brat and her mother is deep in grief. Its a very interesting story. But I know its going to have a disppointing ending because all of Cecelia Aherns books have disappointing endings but that is why i love them. I am just waiting for July so Tess Gerritsen's next Rizzoli and Isles book comes out!!!!!

This week at JSA Mrs. Steinkamp asked if anyone would be willing to accept the job of working on the T shirt design that has been in the works for months. We finally chose a design last month but it needed to be edited for the tshirt makers and noone was getting it done. I said I would do it. I went home and sent her the first draft that night. So what it took others months to not do I did in a night. Then the next morning she sent me what needed to be fixed. I fixed it and sent it back that night. Then finally after a 3rd fixing I sent her a copy that will be voted on next week. Of course I don't quite think it is a good plan to vote because that what gets us stalled so much but I suppose its fair. When I said I would do it I was just wanting to help but the more I think about it, it would be very cool to design the shirt we all wear. Its a tiny bit of fame even if noone knows who made it, hundreds of people would see it.

Although I still don't know what I want to do after high school, I am thinking that I am more of the creative type but I enjoy the logical things too... They say people are either left-brained or right-brained but I think I am both. Maybe that is the root of my indecisivness. Even my brain can't decide what it prefers.

I believe it is facinating how many good people you can find on the internet. I also love how a random stranger on twitter can make my whole day better but a random stranger in real life terrifies me. I posted a tweet yesterday about how I was thinking about Doctor Who while my friends were discussing hair and makeup. Some random person I had never heard of before replied saying how they are glad I am not caught up in the superficiality of high school. They also replied saying they were glad I was having a great geeky day (which is what I labeled yesterday because of my Save the Murlocs shirt and comic books and Big Bang Theory) Twitter is one of the main reasons I am excited for Summer. I was so close to some of my twitter friends over the summer. Now We only talk a few times a week and its depressing. Today is one of my original twitter friend's birthday. Shes 30 something and from Britain. She was the one who first got me to watch Buffy. She found me because of Dollhouse.

It is very interesting to think of how such a little thing has changed me so much. How many people that I talk to now remember much of me before Buffy. Or Dollhouse. I found Dollhouse completely by chance. I was watching Jimmy Fallon and I recognized Eliza Dushku from Bring It On. She was talking about her upcoming show Dollhouse. It wasn't the type of thing I would have watched back then but I decided to check it out. Look where that has gotten me. Dollhouse, Buffy, Angel, Firefly, The Guild, World of Warcraft, Comic books, Dr. Horrible, Doctor Who, Twitter, and so much more. Can anyone remember me without those??? I honestly can't.

I notice myself quoteing any of those shows I just listed without trying. It has become who I am. My entire mind has changed because of them. The funny thing is, I think I am finally the person I always though I would be in high school. Theater, Choir, and Quiz Bowl running my life. I love it.

Well thats all for this week. Hopefully next week I will refind my writing inspiration. Both blog worth and assignment worthy inspiration are needed.

***Kat***

Can you miss something you never got to have?

All week, many of my TV shows have been featuring a plot about the closeness of siblings. This has been causing me to go into a quite depressed mood. I miss my sisters. I've also been realizing that I have missed out on that close bond that siblings get to have. I had 2 sisters but I basically grew up as an only child. My older sister lived almost 1,500 miles away then died 4 months after we moved closer. (Even then we were a few hours away) Then Lydie was Lydie. I love her so much but it really wasn't like growing up with a normal sister. I suppose my step siblings are close but I will never be very close with them. I haven't talked to my step brother in months (and he is in one of my classes. I think. He was at the beginning of the semester. I haven't seen him in a while) And Raven. I guess Raven is very close. I argue with her but I still love her. She's family.

I don't know... This week is just getting to me and I am really not sure why...

On a brighter note, Quiz Bowl competition on Saturday!!!!!!!!!!! I actually get to participate in this one and its a longer car ride!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! This weekend is going to rock!!!!!!!!!!!! I still need to figure out what to do instead of Winter Royalty... I will figure something out.

One thing I realized yesterday is that I am a major optimist. Which in theory is a good thing... but it's also rather stupid.

well that is all.

***Kat***

Well...

I've pretty much gotten caught up in this class so I've decided to blog again... I don't really have much to say. I am doing my advice column as Brittany from Glee but I couldn't really make an advice column fill the whole page so I am actually going to make a mock newsletter for the Cheerios.

Yesterday was absolutely amazing then terrifying. Lots of good stuff happened in Quiz Bowl then I went to Sam's with Tyler because we had to cook for German. Tyler was at quiz bowl with me so I followed her to Sam's. Then We watched tv and ate pizza while Sam's baby played with my phone. Smart little guy took a picture of himself. Then we went to buy our ingrediants. Cooking went wellish... at first. We kinda lit Sam's kitchen on fire. Luckily her parents got it under control quickly. Once it was finally possible to cook I was practically falling asleep while standing there. I helped prepare the stuff then they told me to go home because I was not really capable of doing much. I am still a bit traumatized from the fire.

Today has been rather blah ish. I have JSA right after school which means::: I GET TO WATCH GLEE WHEN IT IS ACTUALLY ON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! This will be the first time in many months that I get to do this!!!!! Then there is a new episode of The Good Wife!!!!!

That's all for now.

***Kat***

Blog of Stories

So, it turns out I have fans of my writing! This is actually the second time people have looked forward to my writing. In 8th grade, I started a small series for science class. It became a big deal amongst my friends. Mass Squirrel was awesome! That was then. Now, I have been telling people about my plans for my observation story and there became a mini bit of excitement generated from the idea.
I finished my very rough draft last night and sent it to Brooke, Raven, and Tyler. Brooke and Raven loved it. I have been convinced to make it into a mini series after I finish the first one for my assignment. I'm debating on setting up an email list for it. That probably won't happen but it has been very thought provoking. A series of short stories sent out via email. If it doesn't exist yet I am sure its not far away.
Now to the reason for this post. I have started a separate blog to post my stories on. I will be adding a link to the side of the page because I post so much this post will be gone sooner that it should be. It is funny to think I had had this blog for several months with 2 posts now I believe this is my 40th in like 2 months.
I hope if you check it out you enjoy my story!



LINK::::: http://writtenbykat.blogspot.com

Superhero Quiz Bowl???

For my Creative Writing Class' Observation Story assignment I have decided to use Wednesday's quiz bowl competition and turn my team into superheroes and the other teams into supervillians with me as the civilian witness.

It is starting out okay but Its seeming weird to write about my friends as if they are superheroes. Good weird, I suppose, but weird.

Today has kinda sucked. I played UNO with Helen in Choir then more UNO at lunch with Sarah, Kris, Jordyn, and Andrew. Other than that today has been very Blah. I couldn't get to sleep last night because of drunken idiots yelling at the bar across the street around 11 pm... This afternoon I work concession stands... Oh Joy.

Well, back to my story for now.

***Kat***

What an Awesome Day!

So yesterday was our Quiz Bowl competition (the one that will be on TV!)We ended up with Mr. Morton as our champarone which was worrysome but ended up great! Bryan was sick so Tyler got to be on the team! That was disapointing but I suppose there is always next year to be on the team. Plus, I loved the experience I got. On the car ride, Tyler, Andrew, and I played a bunch of UNO. We also quized each other quite a bit. Then, when we arrived we went to the assigned waiting area and played more UNO. Then after exaplining to the lady how to say my name, it was time to film the alternates spot. She pronounced it Stethman but it sounded closer than most get it so I let it go. Then I got to stand in the little editing room with the other alternates during the competition.

The first team's alternates were cocky and kinda rude. They Kept saying how they were the chemistry ones of their group and no one in the game actually knew much chemistry. There were 3 of them for that team. They crowded around the window so that is when I settled for watching on the editing screen with the four different views. This ended up being better because I was freaking out. I would silently cheer every time my team got one right, Cringe when the alternates said something stupid (which was often) and just freaked in general when my team missed a question that I knew the answer to... (Nancy Drew is from what town? was one)

The second team was very loud (the team and the alternates) And stupid. When my team guessed Shakespeare on a poetry question the girl alternate turned to the other and asked "Shakespeare wrote poetry?" then they decided the only way our team won is because Preston and Andrew have photographic memories (Preston and Andrew got a good laugh when I told them about that (they don't have photographic memories by the way))

We went to lunch at the Mall. Thats when I read Raven's first attempt at a monologue for her audition for the Spring Play... I was proud of it being from Buffy but it was so inappropriate I made her change it. Then we played more UNO on the ride home. We got back about 10 min after 8th period started so Mr. Morton let us decided if we went to class or not. Tyler and I went to Hastings instead of 8th period. Everyone else (Preston, Adam, and Andrew) went to class... (Nerds! haha) Then Right when school got out I went back to my car and drove to get my mom from work (passing Andrew on the way... and Brooke...) I waited about an hour for my mom while singing in the car. (took me a while to remember the window was open) then I went home and watched Rizzoli and Isles while doing homework. It was weird... I don't think Iv'e ever done homework at home...

Well that was yesterday!

Today has been relatively uneventful.

***Kat***

It Makes Sense If You Don't Think About It

So on Sunday I bought a new version of UNO. It comes in a really awesome case. So of course, during quiz bowl yesterday (at break), I pulled it out for a quick game. It was fun! Then at lunch today we all (we being Kay, Brooke, Andrew, and me) finished eating relatively quickly so to solve our boredom I pulled out UNO. After a few jokes about the fact I now carry UNO with me everywhere, we got 2 games in.

In PC today we had a sub. Our assignment was to work with partners on some worksheets about capitalization and numbers. So as usual I worked alone. It was very simple for me. Several seniors and the teacher came to me for help... This should worry me a bit but I loved it!

Then In math I finished the review rather quickly. Today I have been rereading the Guild comic books. Chior was exciting. The evil pregnant bitca was gone and we sang Bohemian Rhapsody in a cicrle! (Helen and I could actually hear the alto section!!!!!)

In Physics I admit I was basically zoned out but I had many good laughs. Mr. Miller is very entertaining.

Tonight I plan on going home to watch Judy Greer's new show Mad Love then catch up on other shows before JSA.

Tomorrow is the rescheduled quiz bowl competition!!! Sadly, I will miss out on all of my club yearbook pictures but I get to be around people I actually like so I'm okay with it. Hopefully Ms. Norman gets out of Jury Duty otherwise we may get stuck going with Mr. Morton. That would be weird. I have nothing against Mr. Morton. In fact, I think he is pretty awesome! But quiz bowl with him would be strange...

I am thinking that I proabably won't go to Winter Royalty. I keep lying to myself and claiming the Homecoming and Winter Royalty dances are fun. And they are to a point. Mostly, they are stressful and awkward and I don't want to deal with that. I am thinking of having a mini UNO party at Dairy Queen or something. Plus It will be after a Quiz Bowl competition so it can be a little quiz bowl party too!

I am really excited for Spring Play. Tyler is planning to join lights crew. Next year will be weird without her. Thursday is when she is going to start teaching me Baritone so I can join band next year!!! I am really excited.

I had another mental breakdown last night. I had like 5 good days in a row. I guess I am paying for that now... I have a feeling it is because of sleep deprivation. I have been having difficulty sleeping through the night. Iv'e also been having nightmare worthy dreams again which probably means something is bothering me. I have a theory that the fact these nightmareish dreams don't bother me is because not much actually bothers me that much. Iv'e even built up a large tolerance to physical pain these last few years (although my fear of needles is still very much in tact!) I suppose it is not the best thing to have but I am glad for my tolerance of physical and mental pain. Of course it makes my breakdowns longer and more dramatic but overall it makes life easier.

Today Felicia Day announced she is making a new Webshow (And the Guild was renewed for a 5th season (this being the reason for the rereadment of the comic books)) Its been a very busy day for my twitter feed! I really love twitter. I have made very many great friends there. Actually I love the internet in general for that. I may not have met them but I think most of them are better friends than the majority of my actual friends. Connor and Jessica are my Scottish friends who I found through Buffy. Bubblecat is a buffy loving WoWer from Britain. Eskie is a guildie from britain. My other main guildie is Starre. She was very close to Jim (who I have mentioned in a previous post) Then there is ctofine who I talk to quite often. she lives somewhere in the eastern us. Some others include ActiveDoll and GrrAargh. ActiveDoll is a jossverse fan like too. GrrAargh and I have been helping each other through hard times (me with my ongoing missage of my sisters him with the sickness and i think death of his father) I dont know the exact age of any of them (aside from Jessica and Connor) or the gender of several but why does that really matter. They are my friends.

I have a headache which is the reason for my long blog rather than catching up on assignments. My stomach has also been making awkward sounds all day. I should probably worry more about this than I am.

So now to the title. Yesterday was an interesting day with the guy I like. At lunch I was talking to Sarah and I made a reference to the quote "It Makes sense if you don't think about it" Then a bit later I was talking to him. He seemed really distant. But at quizbowl he was arguing with another member over who was right about a question and he said that quote. Whether it was a coincidence or not it made my day.

Well thats all for now!


***Kat***

Angel: The Series (and, as always, other stuff completely irrelevant to this title)

Last night, after 6 months of stalling, I finally started watching the Buffy The Vampire Slayer spin-off. My main reason for stalling was the fact that Angel killed Jenny Calendar in Buffy. She was my favorite character. Also, I didn't want to watch it because once I finish it (And Firefly) I will be out of Joss Whedon tv shows... But, I finally started it and I love it.

Today I have been way out of it. I knew it was Monday but when Mr. G pointed this out I was taken by surprise... On the bright side, I'm not having a bad day! My day has been filled with laughter. I wouldn't particualarily say I am happy but I'm not sad.

As much as I would like to avoid the fact that Valentine's day is probably going to mentioned in Millions of Blogs today I can't avoid it. I am a hopeless romantic. So I love Valentine's Day. The only Valentine's day I remember was 35 days after my sister died yet it was my favorite. It was my fake last day of school in Omaha and I learned how to make a paper boat (Which I still remember how to do!) I still have a tendancy to call it "Anna Howard Shaw Day" due to that 30 Rock episode last year but that would just confuse people even more than I already do.

I am really excited for quiz bowl tonight. I am hopeing to beat my record that I set last week. I probably won't.

I really proabably shouldn't say this here but I feel I need to. So, during the play the lights cues were messed up. As soon as it happened Dan was on the floor cowering just waiting for Rowse to come yell at him. Then more mistakes happened and he returned to cowering. By the end we were all just talking and laughing and paying minimal attention to the show (which I have learned was a bit mistake full today) Now, in most situations I would say what we did was wrong and we should have been completely focused on what we were doing but i really feel what we all needed was that break. But I do believe Dan needed it most.

After the play, I went to my first cast party. It is kinda funny how I ended up there. So, during our time of not paying attention I told them that I had been involved with 6 plays and with all of them I was informed of the cast party after it happened,, therefore I had never been to one. Well, I left right after the show and took Raven home. Then when I got home I had a text from Dan saying that strike and the cast party were happeneing at that moment. Then Tiffany texted me. Then Raven did. So I ended up going to get Raven and going to help with Strike. The Janitor lady didn't trust us I think so that was funny. Then after Strike We attempted to follow Dan to other Kat's house. That was bad. He had no clue where we were going. Then we found Dylan and followed him there. Our matching Chevy Cobalts are now Mustard and Ketchup (his being yellow mine being red) When we arrived, Tiffany was shaking from freight of riding with Dan, Matt, and Elijah. (At the end I took her home) We basically just played Ninja and Rockband the whole time. Dang I sing loud... It was alot of fun. Although, Midnight is not a good time for me. I managed to not lock the car and shower without washing my hair...

Yesterday I finally bought my UNO game with the awesome carrying case.

Its funny how a momentary power outage can change my whole day. I was watching a DVR'd SNL episode and playing with Photoshop on my nonportable laptop (dead battary) when the power went off. It shut off my laptop and reset the cable box making my DVR recordings unavailable for several hours. Not Fun. Also gave me a pretty good heart attack. So I put Bandslam on and enjoyed a good movie. Then I started Angel.

Tonight is Quiz Bowl, then Probably a movie because redbox sent us free movie codes! Then Pretty Little Liars followed by shower and homework time before Rizzoli and Isles!!! Woot Woot! I get my Monday ritual back... although I believe it is the last week of it... Maybe penultimate. Yeah, Its the penultimate week. Tonight Includes 2 more of my favorite episodes of R and I. (If over 4 out of 12 are favorites can I still call them favorite episodes or is it just good episodes?)

I am currently reading Cecelia Ahern's newest book "The Book Of Tomorrow" It is really god so far althoug I am only 80 somthing pages into it. Its weird reading a book by her that is set in teh life of a teenager. Her books have always been my escape because they are set in the lives of people who are at the same mind level as me. In my favorite, "If You Could See Me Now" a 30 something lady with a silent dad still waiting for his runaway wife to return, a runaway mother, a sister who is just like her mother, and her sister's 6 year old son in her care gets a lesson in believing the imaginary when her nephew's "Imaginary Friend" becomes visable by her. They kinda fall in love but then he has to leave. Because of that book Dandelions are my favorite flower. (And yes I know they technically are a weed) Her books never have tradtional happy endings but they have realistic endings and to me thats better. They don't have bad endings it's just never what you expect.

Well thats all of my Random Musings for now! Bye!!!

***Kat***

Once More, With Feeling

As many people know, I love Buffy the Vampire Slayer. I started watching it last January. I finished it in July. This show has made me who I am today. I don't remember my life before Buffy.

Once More With Feeling is the musical episode of Buffy. It is amazing! I have gotten Raven hooked on Buffy too because of the Musical. I own the CD and the Script book (which includes a preface, note from Joss Whedon, Script, Pictures, Behind the scenes, afterace (not sure real word), and sheet music) for the Musical (also my mom got me season 6 which is the season it is in). It is honestly Epic.

I am looking forward to spring break when I plan to rewatch all of Dollhouse. Dollhouse is also by Joss Whedon and is tied with Buffy and Gilmore Girls as my ave show!


So today was proof I have been too busy lately. My mom comes out to the living room around 630 after I have showered and put on my pajamas and asks "When do you have to go back to school?" Now that I think about it that just proves how oblivious she is...

Tomorrow is the play!!! I have had a fantastic mood today. Such a laughful day. Lunch was pure energy.

So, Sarah Silverman is a funny lady but her autobiography should not be read in school. I was doing fine hiding bad and inappropriate words then I came across a drawing of a penis. I quickly covered it with my bookmark (which happened to be my Emma Pillsberry magnet... I found that funny) and luckily I did this when I did because several seconds later the teacher in charge of the room walked up right behind me to shut off my computer (this was after my state writing test which took me a whole 20 out of 90 min...)

Tomorrow I get to dress up. I am so excited. I may be hopeing to impress a certain person but mostly I just feel powerful when dressed up.

Well thats all!

***Kat***

So yeah...

Today hasn't been bad. It hasn't been particularily good either. I woke up on time. Watched some Rizzoli and Isles. Was late to pick up Raven. PC and Math were way too easy but what else is new. Choir was exciting. He rearranged the rows so the old back row was in front. Sadly, this made it even harder for Helen and I to hear... German was easy. Lunch was full of laughs and disappointment. Physics we floated our boats. Dakota and Mine failed... Pretty Miserably. Now I am in creative writing. I am excited I actually get to go home after school! Gives me time to finish and probably rewatch some Rizzoli and Isles before conferences...

After the way today is going, I am even more bothered by conferences than usual. I haven't been paying any attention to any of my classes except choir today but I haven't needed to. Iv'e pretty much just lost hope today.

So last night at quizbowl, I answered 22 questions!!! Compared to my max of 5 I was kicking some major nerdy arse! Preston answered 106... I'm still super proud of myself... Now if only a certain other person had actually been there. Then I went to rehersal where I spent the first half hour searching the school for an FBLA logo with Helen (yet missed nothing even though I didn't get to the theater until an hour and a half after practice started...) I was photographed a lot yesterday... it was awkward. We got to leave early! I also mooched a lot of food off of people. I don't reccomend staying at school for over 15 hours straight...

JSA tonight after conferences! That exclaimation point was mostly my last bit of hope. I used to love JSA now stupidity has taken over a majority of the people.

This weekend I plan on killing a lot of things on World of Warcraft. I need my guildies! Iv'e been thinking a lot about Jim Quon lately. He was the Guild Master shortly before I joined the Knights of Good. He had a heart attack and died right before I joined. Everyone loved him so much. Even though I never knew him I know he is a large reason that I am in the guild today. Starre and the other guildies still miss him so much.

I have been talking a lot about how I need to find something that I really love doing but the truth is I have lots of things I love. It's just a matter of what I will do about it. My mom and other adults keep excitedly telling me how close graduation is getting. Some days it takes a lot of willpower to not punch them in the face. I tell people my main reason for fearing the end of high school is that I don't know what to do afterwords and that is part of it but mostly I'm terrified of entering new territory and outliving my older sister. It's just not right. She should be 28 now. The same age as Rowse and several of my other teachers. She wanted to be a special education teacher.

I don't think a lot of my friends realize just how hard it is to see the LIFE class around school. Well, some of them would understand they just don't ever notice when I see them. I have to see several of Lydia's friends everyday and it hurts. I almost lost it at lunch today when I saw the little girl my mom used to take care of. I miss both of my sisters so much. I wish it were easier.

Well, that's all for now.

***Kat***

Let the games begin!

This week is going to be super busy. (Thus, I have begun calling it hellweek.) This week's festivities include: FBLA Week, Parent Teacher Conferences, The Play, Incredible TV Episode, and no time to sleep.

Seeing as it is Monday and just the beginning of hellweek It's just obvious that today must be the busiest of all. First I should say that I have created a Monday ritual these last few weeks which includes quiz bowl until 6 then dinner until 7, Pretty Little Liars at 7 until 8, shower and homework until 9, then Rizzoli and Isles until 11. I, being the type of person who goes to bed at 9, am stressed by this ritual but because I love Rizzoli and Isles so much I don't mind. But with this being the week before the play, we have late rehersal tonight. Basically, I have quizbowl til 6 and rehersal from 5-10. I will be late to rehersal. I still plan to watch my shows tonight... at least Rizzoli and Isles because tonight's repeats are two of my favorite episodes. I also don't get dinner until 10. The fact that my lunch was at 11:30 makes this fact horrible. Also, apparently a new Monday tradition is feeling like crap. Hopefully I make the instant recovery I did last week.

Tomorrow, We have early dismissal but I have tech until 4. ( although I don't exactly know how lights is expected to do anything in the little theater...) then I get to go to conferences. I hate conferences. Home me and School me are two completely different people. I don't like them mixing. After conferences I have JSA.

Wednesday, we get out early and I have tech til 4 but that's all! It seems so far away. This is probably when I will either do homework or die.

Thursday is the day of the play! Full day of school. Ten back at 5...

FRIDAY IS NO SCHOOL!!!!!!!!!! I am thinking of inviting Brooke over for a Rizzoli and Isles mini marathon because I got her hooked on the books. Iv'e also mentioned the idea of heading to Yankton for Pizza (and by pizza I mean cheese bread) to my mom.

Saturday is the last day of the play! I can't lie, I am really excited for this play to be done. For some reason, this play has made me come to hate lights crew. It's easily possible that the next play will be my last. I was almost in tears just thinking about today's rehersal last night...

Then life gets boring. I can't wait!

Today has been Blah. SSR was hilarious. I decided I really need to finish reading Sarah Silverman's biography "The Bedwetter." Yeah, never bring a book with that title to school if you don't want people asking you a million questions. Back to my story. I was reading it in SSR and I got to a portion where she was describing her idea of sticking a pencil in a guys afro and when she did she actually stabbed him in the head. I was laughing so hard. The class was totally silent while I was cracking up. and considering Ive rarely said a word in that class, I would say Im the new class Crazy.

In choir, we got through all of our songs! We have never done that this set and it was awesome. The only reason this happened was because mr G was gone... Thats always how it is. It finally hit me today that this may be my last semester of Choir. This year German 3 is during the same period as choir so unless that changes I wont be in choir next year...

Well thats all... I feel like I may pass out soon... So tired and sickish.

***Kat***

Saturday is the last day of the play!

Silently Rebellious

Does anyone else even just silently rebel against people because everyone thinks you never do anything wrong. Probably not... I just spent several minutes doing extra work just so I could send my pc assignment from my blackberry just because Ms. Hinze said it couldn't be sent from a phone.

Iv'e also done many other "rebellious" acts this year. I mean I don't do anything that could get me in any real trouble or cause any harm. I eat in places I shouldn't eat. I get to school earlier than they want me to. Just stuff like that.

I also realized that I am really a contradictory person. I love the song "Everything" by Alanis Morrisette because it explains me so well (and there was a Dollhouse fanvid about Adelle set to it...)

This was mostly just a post to get some of my random thoughtcicles out to the interweb.

Another thing is how so many people are confused by my saying yet they start saying them too! (Bitca and asshat have become very popular among my friends)

***Kat***

Impromptu Inspiration

So I am sitting here home alone on a Friday night watching Rizzoli and Isles when I find myself on Tess Gerritsen's website. I paused my show and decided to read some of her blog. I figured I would go back to the beginning (Jan. 2005) and read a few posts.
Holy Cow this lady is amazing. She writes her books that managed to make me love reading again and yet shes funny and completely inspirational. She writes about so much. From bad/weird reviews to the fact she used to write romance novels she brings it all up.

Today, I started my attempt at breaking out of my shyness. I started up a long convo with a friend who I haven't talked to recently. I also started up a little convo with someone who I have never spoken to before. it wasnt much but it was improvement.
Well back to reading Tess Gerritsen's blog!


***Kat***

Theatricality

So I am watching Big Bang Theory. Penny is teaching Sheldon how to act. When in the improv part Penny explained that improv is about saying Yes. For some reason that finally made it click in my head.

Improv is always something I have stuggled very much with. The sad part is I love improv I have just never been able to do it.

I have realized lately that I am able to come up with very (You cant see it but Im doing that spinny thing with my hands that I do when I cant thing of the word I want) (its getting worse!) well basically when someone says something to me my mind often goes back later and comes up with different ways the conversation could have gone.

I was also watching Glee a few days ago (Dream On (Directed by Joss Whedon with guest star Neil Patrick Harris!!!!!!!!!!!!!) and Theatricality). Both of these episode are extreme examples of awesome television. (So is the episode of The Big Bang Theory from tonight (Actual jaw-droppage occured)) It is rare to find TV this good sometimes lately.

I think if I could get over my fears I could be really good at acting. I understand it all in my head its just a matter of getting myself to do anything. I have no shyness problem in my mind its just when I go to actually speak, nothing comes out sometimes.

While watching Better With You, my mom and I realized that if we were a TV show, we would obviously be a comedy, and people probably would watch (This came after Casey and Mia were comapring whether they made noise when the stand up, so my mom and I started standing and sitting in different chairs to see if we made noises (completely normal by the way!))

Well thats all.

***Kat***