Heroes (not the show)

On Sunday January 9th Angie Harmon tweeted "I think we all could use a hero right now..."

My main heroes are either fictional or basically strangers. This bothered me at first but then I realized its exactly what I would expect for me.

Im sitting here reading Ice Cold and coming across tons and tons of references to things in my own life. Ive had several crying spells throughout the morning. Ive been chatting with some of my twitter friends, and trying to get myself out of this bad mood, but Ive realized I cant force myself out of it. There is really nothing I can do. It takes time for me to get out of these common bad moods.

So Ive gotten to a part in my book where A guy is having a seziure. I lost it for a few minutes, then I realized that what I really need to do is finish this part of the book (and this book in general) because these books end with a resolution. Most wouldnt call them "Happy Endings" because its not like the people come back to life but I think thats why I love them. I wont get a "Happy Ending." I wont get my sisters back. I wont get back the childhood I basically lost. But I do get to move on. I'm still here. And I can still have good days, but its the bad days that really make the good days good. They become a reminder of the happiness I can have.

So Im done saying its time for me to move on. Im done waiting for the days when I will no longer have these bad days. Im going to try just living. Sure I will cry, sure I will be miserable. But I will be alive.

Hopefully this will be one of the last sad blogs I post. In 4 days I will be posting about the worst day in my life. I honestly wont reccomend reading it but hopefully by getting it out there I will feel a bit better.

And for now, I will keep looking up to fictional characters and strangers because they are the ones who bring my mood up the easiest! And that makes them my Heroes.

***Kat***